my new niece

dinner and a movie

its thursday night...i have nothing to do, so my roommate and i are ordering a pizza and watching a movie, then some college football...its goin to be a good one.

brothers

i am blessed to have guys in my life that truly care about my relationship with god. that dont care about our value the way the world sees it, so we can all fit in the life boat. guys that are willin to hurt just to expose the pain of sin. thank you brothers for the encouragement and the much needed companionship as we learn to be men of god.

arrrgh

my blog hates me and wont let me view my updates....loud anger

stress

having your phone die twice before 3 pm due to overuse

heroes

i just got through watching the show heroes. i find it interesting, probably because i am a little boy inside that will always have a cape on underneath my work attire. i wished i was indestructible. impervious to pain. instead, im scared. lately ive had more questions than answers. very vulnerable position. i fell like im starting an advernture where the destination is very uncertain, the next step unclear. its an exciting time, terrifying time...one that i hope i will discover things about character; my own, god's, other peoples. sometimes the hero life would be amazing, but right now im finding comfort in where im at...normal.

updates

i live in cola still
i build homes not houses
i love the company that i work for, just not sold on columbia yet
clemson football is awesome right now...yay
i still miss charleston and some of the people there
i have enjoyed getting to know some real, honest people here in cola
i like the cold weather that is coming
i have a nice tv now, finally
4 of my 6 main college roommates are married or engaged (2 of us still holding strong)
i play softball with my company and we are suprisingly good
and cheerwine is still amazing

my second blog

i have decided to return to the world of blogging, against my better judgement. not real sure you are going to waste your time reading random thoughts, but the first go-round was theraputic so here goes. ive had a question rolling around in my head lately, am i honest with god. i love real, open, honest people. i can usually pick out fake people fairly quickly and they get on my nerves. i hate playing games, and tryin to mess with each other. ive always wished that everyone was transparent. i think it would be easier...anyway, lately ive had difficulty searching my heart for the truth. i'll pray and ask god certain things but im not sure i mean it. im not positive what i really want. i feel like im being fake with god. almost praying for things that i feel like i should, and not what is in my heart. it bothers me. i feel like im the one thing to god that i cant stand in other people. it has put a damper on things lately. i want to be real. almost laid bare before god, so that he can change me.